Wednesday, May. 07, 2008

new beginnings

My "freedom" has ended.
It's back to the working world with immediate effect, i.e. in less than 9 hours' time.

Honestly, I am strangely excited about such new beginnings in such a time as this. I thank God for this excitement because I know if not for His grace and His dealing with me, I would still be stuck in my rut labelled "No way am I returning to the corporate world". Thank God for speaking through His vessels to me, and for dealing with my fears and taking them as I finally laid them on the altar after a period of struggle.

Nonetheless, I still fear a little, fearing that somehow I would go back to my mediocre way of life - going back to being bogged down by the troubles at work, stress, and all the blahs that may come - and forget once again that God is the most important One of them all, that whatever bogs me down isn't gonna count for eternity, and that I should be more bothered by things that will last through eternity than all these "urgent yet unimportant" things.

Above all, I know one thing is for sure: Without God, I am nothing. I need the Lord's help to keep burning the flame of passion for His name, to always say "No" to the tempting offers of the world, to invest in what's more important, to keep praying and being reminded of the lost out there and the vision of revival.

And so, as a very good friend has reminded: I must keep pursuing God, keep guarding my time with Him daily.

I wanna do it, I wanna do it.
With the Lord's help, I must do it.
Even if I fall, I must pick myself up and run again.

I wanna be a witness for Jesus wherever I am. Gonna shout His love out loud to the new people I come across!!!

CBD - my mission field.
Jia-you bee.

"One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple.
For in the day of trouble He will keep me safe in His dwelling; He will hide me in the shelter of His tabernacle and set me high upon a rock."
-Psalm 27:4-5

beehahaha at 12:13 AM

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